Sunday, April 25, 2010

An attitude of gratitude

Ahhhh, Sunday morning, welcome back. You are like a long hug from an old friend. Maybe it is because this is my only day to sleep in and do what I want each week. I have work Monday-Friday and a full day of school on Saturday so Sunday is MY day. I woke up rather early today after having fallen asleep on the couch from a Xanax induced coma last night. I had a headache, my back was hurting and I just needed to chill. That is exactly what I did. I had a great IM chat with my gay husband via Facebook. Unbelievable that we were both home and on the computer on a Saturday night but also a sign of us growing up. Back in the day we would have watched the sun come up together as we exited the club. Oh, how things change.

Somehow today I was the first one up in the house. Ferg has the kids this weekend and that usually means the little one is screaming and banging shit on the floor at ungodly hours. Not today. I got up, went to the grocery store and came back to a still sleeping house at 9:30am. When they did get up they ate, changed and headed out the door. This is unusual for Sunday so I asked where they were going. Ferg's answer: "To church, there is a lot to be grateful for lately" Indeed, there is, my friend. I had just been down in my dungeon apartment contemplating that same thing. I have compiled a list for your viewing pleasure. Every once in a while it is nice to do a mental check of what you have and be grateful. One of my favorite Sheryl Crow songs says it all "It's not having what you want; it's wanting what you've got". So here goes...

I am grateful for all of the basic things that we don't really think about much: food, clean water (some don't have water at all), my health and that of my family, a place to live, a job to work at and lots of amazing people in my life

I am grateful for my spirit guides who have been on one hell of a ride with me for the past 6 months. I always feel their guidance and love and I am finally learning to LISTEN.

I am grateful that my sister is back from school. I am grateful that we are close again. I am grateful that she has found the love of her life and is truly happier than I can ever remember her being.

I am grateful that I made the effort to talk to my dad and my expectations of him are almost gone completely. I have accepted that he is what he is and that is best for us all.

I am grateful for my old friends as well as the new ones who have supported and loved me more than I probably deserved sometimes. I am truly blessed to have so many long and deep friendships with so many fantastic people.

I am grateful for my new job and the sense of security that has come with it. I have great co-workers and that is half of the battle with a job as far as I am concerned.

I am grateful for my 31 year friendship with Manda and the sisterhood that has formed from it. I would not be the person that I am without her constant positive attitude and influence.

I am grateful for all of my extended families. Leigh's parents, the Gramlich's and Manda's parents, the Theilig's. I don't think they have any idea how much a part of me that they are.

I am grateful to have loved and lost. I think I am ready to date again. I know that kissing all of these toads is going to make finding my prince that much sweeter.

I am grateful for Ferg and my living situation. I wasn't sure when I moved in how it was going to go and I don't think he was either. We work really well together. I have lived with many very good girlfriends. This is the first guy I have lived with that I was not dating and it is my best living situation yet.

I am grateful for my Bo Bo dog. My constant companion and friend. I can't believe he will be 7 this year. Time flies, for sure.

I am so grateful to CL for being a coward and releasing me from the prison that was that relationship. It is funny how much you don't see until you are free.

I am grateful for school. Not just for the education and the experience but for the lesson in life and culture that I am getting. I should have done this years ago.

I am grateful for my mom and the lessons she taught me about independence, self reliance and strength of character.

I am grateful to this blog for giving me a place to vent and also a way to meet many amazing people that I otherwise would not have met.

I am grateful to myself for having the knowledge and strength to do what I want, when I want and not look back. I could not be more proud of me right now.

I am sure there is more but I am ready to go enjoy my ME day. Happy Sunday to all!

Peace and Love,


  1. I love gratitude posts, they always make me thankful of what's going on in my life too...

    I miss Sundays though, the weekend here is Thursday/Friday - relaxing and sleeping late on a Friday is just not the same!

  2. I am grateful for a friend like you! One who is always reflecting on herself and trying to improve from the inside out. I am happy to have known you for over 20 years and to still have you in my life. I am happy that so many wonderful things are happening for you!