An open letter to the universe

Dear Universe,

I believe in your infinite power and wisdom. I thank you for leading me in life thus far and I apologize for the times that I did not listen or pay attention when you tried to send me warnings or signs. The law of attraction says that you must put it out there; whatever it is that you need, want or desire and it will be yours. The world is full of abundance if only you ask for what you need. I have been circling all of this around in my head for so long. First, figuring out what I needed. Then how to put it out there? Then the hardest part of all for me, continuing to believe and being PATIENT! I feel like I have put it out there. Most of the time patience is the main problem for me. Last night as I was lying awake from my newfound extreme insomnia I wondered how I could do better at putting out what I wish to receive back. What better way than using my blog?

First I would like to start with gratitude:
Thank you for showing me the truth and more importantly for being patient while I accepted it.
Thank you for the amazing women in my life who have been an unbelievable amount of support and love to me for the past 30 years but more so in the past few days.
Thank you for forgiveness in myself and others.
Thank you for the feeling of peace despite the upheaval in my life.
Thank you for the knowing and understanding that it will all work out even though I can’t see how just this second.
Thank you for the strength to get up and put one foot in front of the other each h day.
Thank you for the love and support of my family.
Thank you for the opportunity to grow and learn in ALL of my relationships this year.
Thank you for my health and that of my loved ones.
Thank you for your patience in showing me the red flags even though I did not want to see them.
Thank you for making me see that putting yourself out there and loving someone with all that you have is nothing to be ashamed of.
Thank you for showing me I am stronger than I ever thought I was.

What I want out of life is what everyone wants, to be happy. I am happy when I am with my girls. Animals make me happy. Babies and old people as well. I need a new home. I don’t really want to be alone right now. I need a place of love, acceptance and peace to figure out my new direction. I want a career that doesn’t feel like work. Something I don’t dread getting up to do every day and I feel pride in at the end of the day. I would like to be able to pay all of my bills with one job. I want to be self sufficient as I have been my entire life. I want to be in love. I want true love with a man who worships me. I want someone who will bring flowers for no reason, ask about my day, do little things to make me smile and love me unconditionally. I want to be married and possibly one day, be a mom. I want the strength, courage and knowledge to follow my heart to all that I am seeking. And I want you watching over me, guiding me and showing me what I know is right and best for me.

Peace and Love,
Little T